Just wanting to vent about a friend of mine to get this all off my chest since I’ve been holding onto this thought for quite a while now.So as of recently I couldn’t really stop thinking about what my online friend said to me last year (months ago to be specific). But adding onto that, it’s also to do with what she’s like in general that causes me to continue to think about. usually when I have to deal with a friend that acts like the way (same or similar) that she’s acting, normally I’d completely off contact with them so that I won’t need to worry about dealing with them again.So about my friend, her and I are pretty good internet besties I’d say even though we don’t talk with each other often. And what throws me off about her is how opinionated she is and the fact that she seems to be very full of herself and gets defensive whenever someone tells her whatever she says that they don’t like. When I say ‘opinionated’ I mean as in she’s the type to spew her opinions on things even if they’re the opinions that people including myself don’t even agree with. Based from how she responds to people when they don’t agree with her opinions, she acts like she tries to get them to agree with her and doesnt appreciate it when people disagree with her? Likes she’s usually really passive aggressive about it pretty much.But for me when it comes to talking to someone who has opinions especially if they’re the opinions I disagree with, I mean it’s fine if they only do that like rather rarely to be honest, but when they do it like… pretty much (or even almost) everytime whenever they’re comfortable doing it, or if they do it like a few times (even more than a few times), then that’s what throws me off and makes me not wanting to continue on being friends with them anymore. But in the case of this friend, I don’t engage with her everytime she spills opinions I don’t agree with so yeah. But then whenever I read her opinions that she makes sometimes on the forums that i disagree with, it’s like…ok it’s your opinion but at the same time,you really need to chill out.Moving on to what she said to me last year that I can’t stop thinking about, so basically I was mentioning about something - right? And i didn’t like/appreciate the way she responded to me with it so I called her out on it, and then the day after she then apologised to me but at then she ended her apology statement with “but I don’t think my tone came off that way”. Lmao, for someone to say a ‘but’ statement including that one you can tell that they’re genuinely NOT sorry. 🤣Also, whenever people come at her or I guess try to have an honest conversation with her about what she says that they don’t like, she gets defensive instead of owning up to it and apologise, then after that vents about them on a separate thread (a thread that’s filled with random thoughts that anyone’s free to write/express on the forum) — they’re basically filled with her indirectly telling those users on the things she wished she would say or wanna say to them. Me reading those, I mean I’m all for people expressing their feelings and opinions that could or might potentially be triggering for others to read (including myself), but I’d prefer if they’ve kept all of that to themselves instead of expressing them all on a public platform for everyone to see.

Heyyy,I am feeling very scared and just so overwhelmed at the moment. I have an ED and I think my GP might send me to hospital. I’m terrified that it’s gotten this bad and I didn’t even realise, I can’t fathom telling my parents that they are sending me to hospital. I wake up in the morning wanting to change and I do try really hard but it’s like an automatic thing now and I’m really scared. I want to lie to my GP and tell her that I’m getting better but then that will enable my behaviour. I want and need help but I’m terrified to do so and to admit to my parents it’s worse than they know. If anyone has any experience or tips in this area, anything would be appreciated, I’m really in the deep end here : )love to you all xx

Hi Everyone,It's been a while since I last posted. I just wanted to say hi, update you on how things have been, and ask for some advice.So I would say things have started to improve since December last year. I'd come off my mood stabiliser with the help of my GP, as I didn't need it anymore. The adjustment period went all right; nothing happened there. Fast forward to this year and about six weeks ago, with my psychologist, we didn't have much to discuss. We were going over some meditation stuff I'd been doing, which has been a big help. Anyway, my Mum and Dad were over for the Richmond vs. Carlton AFL game, which was hard to watch, as were the other three games, being a Carlton supporter. Anyway, Mum asked if I could skip the session, and I didn't think I needed it, and being busy with them helped. A week later, I decided to go to my psychologist fortnightly. It was a tough decision I had to make as I had been going weekly for about 18 months.Inititally I was happy about it once I told my psych, gosh after it was hard and it's taken a lot of processing to move forward with the dision. It brought up a lot of emotions, such as sadness, anxiety, fear, guilt, grief, uncertainty, vulnerability, loeliness, and doubt. These emotions were complicated, but as I write this, it's still been good to go fortnightly.So the two weeks came around I talked to him about how it was a struggle the two weeks we went though that and a few other things. Anyway, I found it hard when he said we were coming to the end of the session. He asked me to recap, as we do that in every session, to ensure we are both on the same page. Anyway I honestly wanted to cry so badly I felt very overwhelmed. Thinking back to it, I felt like I was losing connection after being connected for about 80 minutes. Maybe a build-up of emotions as well. I honestly wanted to get out of there as quickly as possible. I don't know why, at the moment, I didn't say anything, as I regret that, and I did after the session once I left. Knowing I would have to wait two weeks to tell him how I felt as we were ending made things much worse. Honestly, I wanted to go back and knock on the door and tell him how I felt. I didn't, but I wanted to. Question: With that, would anyone do that or have thought of doing that?Also, does anyone have advice on overthinking? In the two weeks between the last session and the one before, I couldn't stop overthinking my session, like, did I do the right thing? It was eating me up inside.Anyway, I am back to Thursday, so after I calmed down from the session that night and until today, I am still thinking about it again and overthinking. I wish I could park it in the back of my mind, knowing I'm going to talk to my psych about it in two weeks.I also wish he had noticed my change, like when he said we were near the end. I honestly could tell my facial expressions changed, and I was being very vague in recapping and wanting to get out of there quickly. That seems to be a key thing, and I'm hoping he will notice. Maybe I need to let him know that if something seems off to push it, I will share as now I have to live with that I didn't say anything for two weeks, which sucks big time. He even said I might feel sad over the next two weeks because of not seeing him, etc., and I thought I was right now. How could he not tell? Was it because we were coming to the end? But previously, I think I got upset, and it either goes like it did on Thursday due to me worrying about the time as I didn't want to go over with me crying. Once, I think he noticed my lip was quivering, which gave it away, but we didn't get too far into it. I don't seem to let myself fully feel think with him. I wish I did, as that's one reason to see a psychologist.Does anyone know anything about Intellectualising emotion? I do that a bit, like analysing them and not letting myself process them. Or I go into trying to fix them instead of letting them be.Anyway, that was longer than I thought. I hope that's okay. I just wanted to share how things have been going.Overall, I am doing much better than I have in the past. I am safe, and I know I can contact KHL for extra support if needed

so my birthdays coming up (i wont say what date for my privacy), but idk I just don't feel excited is uni really consuming my soul? probably. I hate it so much I don't want to do a postgrad, maybe all the fun stuff is after first year but that's still 11 months away. i only went to uni cos finding a job is so hard, cant even catchup with friends cos uni is overloading them. honestly uni is so overrated, they put hurdle requirements on exams do they just want us to stress out (yes they do). screw a well-rounded education I'm literally an adult, I don't want to be in uni debt over subjects I didn't want to do to begin with

Hi,Feel like I'm back at square one again with making friends, I've made so many travelling all over the world but I've gone straight back to them not responding and not agreeing to call. Like I really wanna go out and meet new people in my hometown but idk if its worth it because the patterns are repeating again